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Bloggity – Why are “Christian” Private Colleges so (damned) Expensive? 20 February 2020        So, I’m looking up which University to go to (i.e. who’s going to get my moolah from my Montgomery GI Bill), and I’m perusing to classifieds for each, and nearly spit out my coffee. $48,500 here, $52,000 there, the list goes on. Now wait a minute, I know full well these schools basically give you education discounts – in the forms of scholarships, but rarely, and I mean RARELY, do you get to go “for free.”  So, despite the “congratulations, you’ve been admitted! You’re a first time Hispanic student (no hate here, I get it, you cannot help your ethnicity – hey! Me either! #meeither), whose parents didn’t go to school and you’re Catholic and hey you don’t make anything, so today, we’re “giving you a scholarship” (er um, tuition “discount”) of $25,000! Yeaye!  Right. So now, I’ve STILL got to pay > $20,000 just for the tuition, PLUS another $20,000 for room, board, transportation, and

  This post was from my August 2018 Series, again with some pretty difficult findings. I was in a very dark place, both with my family and in my own head. I battled practicality in pursuing my dreams.  This post is a snapshot of the arguments and heart cries I have faced while in process of "about facing" my life. I hope you can gain some understanding or know you are not alone in the friction you may have experienced in a similar lifestyle change or pursuit of a dream (or rather alignment of heart, mind, soul, body, and spirit) in your life.      August 17, 2018 Bloggity – The Dangers of Succeeding   “You can do it! Come on Lyd! You got this!” You might have heard such encouragement throughout your childhood. My encouragement was met with equal parts of shunning & chastisement from my mother, which equated to a very confusing childhood, and an even more painful adult experience. The daughter of a narcissist / BPD, and a father who struggles with depression and anx

Marginalization of GORUCK women ... there IS a history lesson in here I promise!  Recently it came to my attention that perhaps one of my most beloved groups has been, and perhaps always will be guilty of that which I’ve tried to avoid most – marginalizing women.  What?! Isn’t that insane? You’d think any woman who is nutty, crazy, and courageous enough to pick up a weighted back pack and perform military physical conditioning along with a 10-15-20+ mile galivant around their town with additional challenges would hold some clout in an organization’s mind (esp. one that profits off of her signing up and showing up, sporting their gear, paying them $$$ to participate etc...). I am finding it difficult to even write this. I always viewed GORUCK as supportive of both men and women, empowering one another through tough, guided, team and endurance building activities. Suddenly, but not so much, I am reminded of a past that still permeates all venues of this country. The milita