Lydee Central

Why is it when you give yourself away people always try to take up power over you???? I loved you with all I had, and now you think you're the "master of your roost".....that's not what love is supposed to do. That's not how it works, you're supposed to lay down your life because your heart has been touched and is amazed and happy and humble that someone else could love yo u so much. Instead, you set up control factors and conditions. I hate this, this is not love, it's control

My Check in for the day , would in clude that I feel fearful, vulnerable, broken , crushed. I know and am realizing the depth of my need. Even the heart of my beloved fails. We all fail. We choose to hurt each other. As long as we keep running , we deceive ourselves. God thank You that You are constant. I want to run into You. I want to hide in the Cleft Of the Rock, under the Shadow of the Most High, where death nor life can separate me from Your life. I have been struggling with my part of this journey. God, help me. Even when the one who we're supposed to be one with (on this earth, in this life) does not want that, and rejection flourishes, I will abide under Him. I am not second in His eyes. He is not second in my eys. Christ will remain first. He is the author of my life, He has set His seal upon my heart. Emptyhanded, but alive in Your hands God, I am . Humbled by the love that You give. God help me to forgive as You forgave me. Help me to release him to You, fully, complete

I am in the process of letting go. I can't speak into your life. When I do, I am accused of judging your heart. I am the one who is supposed to be the closest to you, and the one whom you are to allow to give you the warning signs. You become more upset & defensive, and are "quick to judge" my heart (saying always that I am angry & upset). I cannot make you want certain things that are good & right & true. There was a time where you would've agreed with me. There was a time we stood together on these matters - only, I was the one under the 'scope. I listened, patiently, and with much interest....even if I was accused of something that may not have been true about my heart, I listened, and took it as counsel. That is the only reason I am alive today. And you were the one to speak into my life. There is a wall here, and I do not know if I am able to get through....I cannot make this wall be torn down. There's no door...just a wall. There is a par