Lydee Central

Big suprises have been happening. First event, we moved & now we are out of in-laws house. Small but welcome victory. Being on our own has allowed our marriage to finally continue instead of back track. It's also allowing me to see how much my husband does support me. Second realization happened: I do not have the job that makes the best use of my time. I know that is the case for many people. I, however, refuse to stay in a job for 20+ years that I am not passionate about simply because it is "smart" or "safe" by someone else's definition. I will not allow the life to be drained out of me every day. So what about it then ? I will be going back to school either right on the heels of when my hubby finishes, or, sooner (this is my goal). Frugailty is most important (esp. since we just got into our new place), and I will do what it takes to save up, scrimp, and scrounge. I am not willing to sacrifice passions & dreams that simply haven't gone away o

So what is value? Is it purely the worth which we place on a person, item, thing? Is it determined by God, as so stated in religous & political tests? I wish we all could agree on a common determinate, because everywhere I turn I see struggles of value, worth, gain, and greed. There is pride that demands honor & respect, and people deem it "love". In reality, love does not seek it's own, because if it did, it would devalue all that love stood for. It is based on that notion, that I can find my peace. We all do the unthinkable & tell each other in various ways that we are unvaluable, and "not worth it". It is most difficult when the ones we are closest to do this, intentionally or otherwise. For me, it is most difficult when I have been told by a friend that I am loved, that I am valuable, worth it, etc.. and for that friend to do an act of service that would say otherwise. That would confirm the "faith without works is dead" verse that I re